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Sunday February 25th 2007 vs Friday May 6th 2011

four years apart; this is a "meme - tag" i did at 2007.

1.Last time you fell in love?

- erm..January 2007..

- Currently in love

2. Last movie you watched?

- Ghost Rider..~

- Battle Los Angeles

3. Last shirt you wore before this shirt?

- ermm..some extreme t-shirt

- my what the frack shirt from Universal studios

4. Last thing you held?

- My Mouse..<--computer..-__-

- My iPhone .

5. Last time you cried?

- Last nite..sleep..

-Last Night ( okay some things never change)

6. Last place you went?

- Toilet..-_-

- Downstairs :P , er - I forgot last time i left the house was 3 weeks ago.

7. Last testimonial you got?

- Ohh..erm..dunnoe..-_-

-My school testimonial , i was the best student. okay not really.

08. Last message you got?

- erhh..."K"

- LOL , from Alicia :P because its now 3;30 and i told her i don't sleep "early"

11. Last e-mail?

- lazy check got 73 e-mail in my InboX...

-From Twitter , a private message.

12. Last to call you?

- him..

-My Father.

13. Last you called?

- errrhhh...him oso..

-Teddy - Through Skype

LOVE

1.Meaning of love?

- Love..something that is easy to begin and hard to end..and unforgetable..like war..

-Love, If we can explain love - its not love .

2.Do u trust boys?

- ..must i? lolx.. maybe..some lerh.

- I don't even trust my father , I trust one enough to tell him things;

3.Wanna be with whom now?

- hmm..dunnoe..

- This boy living so far away from me.

4.Kissed anyone before?

- ohh..does my guitar count..? =3

- My First kiss went a little like this - Muahh , and twist .

5. whats your hp number?

- 1-800-Kookie-Penguin-Guitar

-012 2334456 (:

6.What do you think makes a person wonderful?

- Their personality....

-the moment where they start trusting you to tell you things;

7.For you, what is important in a relationship?

- Trust..honesty..

- The chemistry , the trust , the honesty - the Believe.

8.Who do you think is always the cause of

break-up in a relationship? Guy or Girl?

- Guy...the dun have any excuse..

- its the one who's wrong , never a matter of gender;

10.What is the most important thing to you?

- My darl''

-My family, my friends - your believe towards me

11.Will you give everything for the sake of your

relationship?

- Depends..=3

- if he love me enough.

12.Had you ever experience being DUMPED?

- ...>.>'' no..i keep wishing No..

- i went through the feeling of being left alone, not dumped.

13.If you were given a chance to go back in

time what will you do?

- ohh..to many to name..-_- 1st i will go study properly..

- I would not , i am happy with what i have right now.

14. Do you love someone who doesnt love you?

- ohhh..yaa.."cry~"

- I am pretty sure he loves me. Pretty? Nah - Confirmed

15.Why everytime a relationship is over the

guy is the one getting blame?

- Because we blame dem for no reason..

- Its not for no reason , because us girls we are sensitive , they drink to forget girls - we drink to remember those moments with them . we are just , special sensitive souls.

16.What will you do if a gift u gave was given

back to you?

- *take knife*..

- I would be taken aback :O

17.Is it really hard to move on?

- No..Stupid question

- Haha , i clearly wasn't in love four years ago - yes , really hard.

18.If by chance the girl/guy you once love

needed help will you help him/her?

- I dun see why not..

- I really don't see why not .

19.If someone hurts you? And someday the

person asks for your forgiveness will you

forgive him/her?

- maybe..

- I forgive, but i never forget.

20.Do you believe in the saying "Letting go is

easy but letting someone go is hard??

- yeah...

- still do , and always will. but when someone new comes along . well yeah.

21.For every love you give does it pay off?

- ....no..

- Yes.

22. Wat kind of guy/girl r u seeking for?

- i have no idea...-__-''

- I seek for the one who cares , loves - believes , trust me ; in every imaginable way.

four years later ,

i seem to think with common sense . not stupidity .

you wake up late - enter your class with a cup of coffee;

you know, i was never the one who shows affection on blog - unless its a scandal just to embarrass him virtually, but from my last few post - you can tell i'm serious about this boy, no you wont get to know his name or even see a picture of him ;

you'll have to know him as Teddy, - Yes Teddy Bear teddy ; why? i don't know it's like Nadia from NadNut with the boyfriend's name Ching Chong Boy , which i still find really cute .

well back to the main point ;

You see the teddy bear above? Yes i know it's ugly - don't even bother telling me it's ugly and i wasted my money buying it. DOOOOD I HAND SEW IT.

Step 1:

Cut the Base of the teddy bear legs,hands,body,head,ears.

Step 2:

Sew them all together - and stuff it with Cotton!

Step 3:

Always read the instruction properly- they say don't stuff the ears, i stuffed it anyways - now it looks like mickey mouse. BOOO. Then sew everything together. You get a teddy bear -

I remember watching Cardcaptor sakura , they say making a handmade teddy bear for your loved one is actually something really sweet- and what not i forgot. fml.

this brings me to a very cute conversation with Teddy really -

Me : what are we gonna name our teddy?

him : I don't know

Me : it has a birth certificate also you know

him : where is it? i wanna see it

Me : Its ..somewhere .

him : go find it, if we don't have the birth certificate how are we gonna send him to school? D:

i believe , i can have fun with you

i believe , i can be serious with you

i believe , i believe , i believe.

up to you to believe it or not that i am no where near single.

sorry - no kissing pictures for you on my blog , because well - i look ugly , side profile-y

(y)

i used to sleep at night until well - yeah .

above is my wonderland , or at least my desk/table/study really - they say you can tell a lot from ones study . but well - all you can tell from my desk is i have three phones and a lot of lotion . Haha i actually wanted to take more pictures and what not , but i got lazy - too bad for you eh , but you'll have to live with the words for now . at least until i get my modem back which has WIFI.

#1. Pictures on the wall

- you can pretty much tell i'm a photography junkie.

#2. Six pen holders

- I am this doodle crazy person - you can tell from the amount of color pens , sharpies , highlighters ,and fountain pen i have.

#3. The tortoise / turtle looking thing on my CPU

- I must say , that thing has a story behind it , it was given to me by the convenience store guy at my national service training camp from sabah. IT FLEW ON MAS AIRLINES OKAY.

#4. three phones

- You wanna know what's the more amazing thing? You can reach me at all three numbers. :O . but one particular number is for one person only. too bad for you aight?

#5. the necklace on my monitor

-its actually from a friend. a few weeks ago, its a ring - with my name engraved inside . it never left my side .

#6. Those candles under the monitor

- I am a candle junkie , i buy candles . I am saving for the yankee candles which costs RM 60 a bottle. ;\ . I just can't stand candles :( Buy them for me? as my farewell gift? they are for sale at parkson Pavilion - the floor where they sell bed sheets and hello kitty things.

#7. those sketchbooks at the end of the book collection

-two moleskine , red and black and two unicorn sketch book ( one not in sight) they are filled with my deepest darkest secrets and desire , if a friend comes by - they will automatically disappear . :P

#8.iPhone 3Gs and 4 box

-yeah , i am not spoilt that way . i got both of the phones like one for less than RM500 each because i am under contract . your phone is probably still more expensive than my iphone.

#9.The post it's on my CPU

- I am a post-it addict , well - i don't know why but , i love post-its . i used 7 post-its pads at Sabah. just by doodling on them . yeah .

#10. The 5 lotions under the monitor

-its actually 2 Crabtree and Evelyn hand cream and 1 Crabtree body lotion and 1 Viva la Juicy , Juicy Couture body lotion . Let say , i stay under the aircond so much - my body is really dry and wrinkly . Hence the amount of Lotion.

#11. The Louis Vuitton Wallet above the books

-its there because i used it just yesterday . Now its back in the dust bag. i got that from my dad for my 17th birthday . my last expensive wallet . unless my boyfriend wants to get me one. yes this is a hint for boyfriends - EXPENSIVE BAGS IS A NEED.

#12. My most prized possessions

- or so it seems.

From Right to Left :

a Simple ruled book,

- For random notes and self study .

Vogue British December 2010,

- The cover was Emma Watson , I just couldn't resist spending Rm28 on a magazine .

Marie Claire Malaysia April 2011,

-The last marie claire i bought .

Vogue USA November 2010,

-It was Anne Hathaway with that gorgeous red Oscar De La Renta dress .

My Micro economy Textbook for Matrix and pre-u,

- i don't find the need for the course i'm taking in June really - and guess what? its almost exactly like my Secondary 5 Economics.

Memoir '10,

- My senior year school magazine - Ahh the memories in it eh?

72nd Edition of the mckk magazine,

- a magazine that i should be envious of .

The Works of Jane Austen,

- I realize that I still have one more book in it to finish .

another note book,

-Bought from universal studio Singapore .

Tagore in mandarin,

- No i don't read chinese , they have "pinyin" - english words that pronounced the chinese character .

My Starbucks Planner,

- Filled with - doodles of hearts .

Immortal Words,

- Self explanatory .

The Art of War by Tsun Zu,

- I am sure all of you heard of it before .

Penguins Love Poem,

- got this spontaneously .

Logomania ,

- think , english idioms but somewhat more explicit .

Eat , Pray , Love -

- The art , Of doing . Nothing .

The New Testament Bible,

- i got it from Camp .

Dracula ,

- Its such a hard book to read , i need a dictionary with me when i read it .

William Shakespeare's Macbeth,

- it means a lot to me , at the back of the book - my parents , Alicia , Eric , Stephanie , Vanessa and Joshua's Number are written , I brought this book to Camp - I guess i figured out who meant a lot to me through those three months eh? .

Random Notebooks at the end.

Well - this concludes the end of my Table Tour . wtf.

Its 6;30 am. I need to sleep.

x Until tomorrow or later.

just because i came off strong -

doesn't mean i didn't fall asleep crying

and even though i act as if nothing is wrong -

maybe, just maybe i am a good liar.

when we first met i didn't know you would be so important to me - you were just the boy that looked good smiling , then i remember talking to you on the phone till late night during weekends , for a moment you were that backstabber to your friend - and then we fell for each other - after that it was history .

how cliche .

i didn't find for love - it found me

i didn't force myself to fall. i just - fell.

goodnight or morning wherever you're from.

bravery is being the only one who knows you're afraid;

Like a star;

Maybe you write notes like this to every girl- or maybe this is another tactic of yours from being a casanova all these time .

you know i never like posting things like this on my blog , because i know before me there was a girl typing in limerence - and after me , there will be a girl who will be typing in her blog about you , so i rather be that girl who keeps you anonymous for the time-being , who knows later that next girlfriend of yours is a stalker .

#361 . when you know you'r better than his ex.

Sorry I had to ;

but the next girl wont even get to compare with me. yes i am going to be a bitch now and say things like this and its not even ego talking.

it took me , about three hours to actually post something like this - sorry was never the person who display my affection in public .

yeah those in the pasts on my blog are scandals. its different. Whatever it is - I found that megawatt smile of mine

until then -

lets write a love story ;

unlike most of you - who go to a private college , apply , pay and start the following monday . I need to apply - and wait for them to send me back a letter and also worry about not getting into a college . I had the dream of going into Taylors or Sunway - apparently my father don't believe in those colleges .

so i applied to another college, and guess what - I got accepted .

The Worst thing is - I wont be living in Kuala Lumpur anymore.

This was drafted a few days ago , when i was in a critical emotional breakdown. Orientation starts May 29th , whoah - that soon? okay fine i still have about one month ; you know , i was told by my father that i will be going Melaka on the 23rd of March , when i was alone at starbucks reading Love Poems selected by Laura Barber , seriously i started tearing up right there right then. AHAHAH AT STARBUCKS HOW LAME. Don't Judge - at that point I felt what Joshua was feeling , needed to move away from his friends and technically his life at KL.

Chapter 1 ; Our Love Story .

Chapter 2 ; Kuala Lumpur .

Chapter 3 ; Melaka .

forty one names;

you know in life you just tend to meet those amazing people when you go for a trip ; in my case a three month "trip" or three months serving the country . You know they keep saying how bad serving the country is - i beg to differ , apart from the amazing people you meet , you will just have this part of you that you'll never get by going college in January :P yes i am mocking all you first intake college students , because i know at least two is reading .

In no particular order .

Azizan;

or better known as Jee Jan , I was looking for him ALL over Facebook typing his name 'Jee Jan' , Apparently his name is under Azizan -

He is in the same Character Building class as I am , there was an open sharing session . He went out and share , and we all found out he was the leader of his school's cadet , and also a really good gymnast, he did a double back flip infront of us , the picture above was taken by a friend using my camera - another day .

Here we Have Karen

At camp, there is ought to be the one who seeks for attention . the one above bah - second in line is me, - If Karen's name is not called - its gonna be mine. so whatehhell.

Nah - Rasyid Razak.

Or James Bond like the previous post i mentioned

He is like my best friend there , I am serious - he listens to me like how Stephanie and Alicia listens to me & he is nice enough to carry my 20KG bag down the stairs , do you know my first plan was to actually bloody throw the bag down? :P Ahh abort plan.

Micha-

Cheerleader, straight A student , a leader , a singer;

What more can you say about her? almost perfect .

Clare and Effa ;

My roomates - Clare the one on the left , she is this really spoilt and loved daughter , she kinda cries every day :P but she is loved .

Faa Abdul.

The friend - correction the Best friend that i can connect with 99% of the time the 1% is when she talks about her boyfriends :P aku jealous Faa.

Zul Nazrie. or Bob.

You know the names given there - well its just doesnt even connect to your real name ' Bob. - i asked him why Bob , he was like "aiyer - takpe la asal orang ingat" as long as people remember haha - you know from the way he look and talk you'll think he's from Kuala Lumpur , but apparently he isn't i was shock when i asked him - there is not even this Borneo accent to him.

Liang Soon ;

This boy he is useless :P . yet i just wanna put him in here- why? Because he is my Character building team mate - and we were friends - the reason he deserve a spot here is because he saw me tearing up - he called me "wei she muo ni ku" why did you cry? was the first sentence he said to me . - good to hear at least someone cares :P

but i cannot fit all 300 people in one post , because at one point they are all special to me.

Especially this 41 people. - I still remember all forty one names.

Alycia , Mas , Amirah , Liza , Michelle , Anne, Faten , Fitri , clare , MeMey, Fairy , Effa ,Ayang, Fairuz, Faizah, Meng , Faridah, Fazizatul, Ain, Joy , Atikah, Syida, Korina, Fadz, Jocelyn , Cheng , Lily, Nabila, patimah , Lora, Rechel, Rowena , Saripah, Beno, hafiza, zeerah, Teha, Cat, Suhaila, Susanne , Thila.

is that forty one?

Ah , i never get tired of shouting "Charlie - Cepat"

until the next post;

I am nocturnal.

The fund for the land down under;

Testing one two three , posting this from my iPhone really , let's hope it's working properly .

Oh I have about 7 ringgit and 5 cents . Its a start :P

Di kem wawasan ini; January 3rd- March 13th 2011;

the last time i actually posted a good post was almost two months ago ; if you guys haven't been following my tweets/old posts - well you probably wouldn't know that i came back from national service less than a month ago; - where i come from , if you're chosen for the national service , you need to go - its the ultimatum really . Let me try to sum up my three months at Borneo Sabah in a blog post orait?

Let me start with Pictures (:

That is my little head of company shoulder boards . Those two stripes mean nothing to me when i am with my forty-two little company members , they are like my siblings.

This picture don't even show half of the forty-two people i lived with for almost three months. when i went back from my chinese new year holiday - the first thing i heard was KAH EE - KAH EE - KAH EE , crap i almost teared because i realize how much i miss them.

A lot of them admitted to me that i was like that older sister they never had ; i wake up at three am just to go to the toilet with them alright -.- imagine that.

This is me- after a long day of activity , tired beat up - sweaty - smelly i must say . but one thing look behind at the locker :P notice those noodle cup? for the win my mum mailed it from Kuala Lumpur.

Those are my roommates - unlike other camps around Malaysia with 24 person a room , at Sabah Only at my camp - we have six in a room , so we definitely share a bond that is tight - really tight.

At camp- we actually have night shifts. or "jaga malam" we take turn - going around rooms until two am ; which is horrible , i almost died from tiredness okay :P

this is Rambo - no , his name is Wan but everyone calls him Rambo , i have no idea why - but it somewhat suits him .Somewhat la . but he;s one annoying bugger.

This is my company teammates . and that symbol - is actually what we call the Charlie Symbol.

they actually thought it was some kind of worm or something :P

let me tell you a story , every weekend we get our phones - and i stay at the Dining hall with my crazy ass best friend Faaaa Abdul to charge our phone.

When physical activity started - i was the most active asthma patient there was .

i was actually banned from doing anything and everything . But i went on anyways - because i cried :P wtf the only time i cried there was when i wasnt allow to go on the flying fox - abseiling and the last day there . dont judge kay it was emotional.

I did the bleep test oh i went from level 3-stage 3. to level 4 stage 3. in three months . and the best thing is i gained weight at camp :P yet my stamina went higher.

throughout the whole camp i had no access to music okay NONE - someone with 6000 songs in their itunes - that is just sad okay like seriously . But then i met James Bond :P okay or so everyone called him James Bond i don't know why - he brought his iPod. i technically made it mine. :P . technically. Ahaha. Well i couldn't help it .

that's me and Joanne - my school classmate - like damn okay , we got into the same bloody camp - without her , i can die.

Everyone Meet James Bond - I mean Rasyid Razak , the owner of the iPod with a soft side for cats. Did i mention there was like 394823842384932 cats around there?

and mr James Bond here is like my best friend there - he was there through thick and thin :P . even till now.

the picture.

yes THE picture.

THE colt m16. Damn .

I can tell you seriously - National Service was fun - For me at least :P

I gained so much , experience and also well - i even saw things . .-.- Yeah at one point i was sleeping with two holy bibles , yes i am a free thinker i know but hey - no harm right? come on - you wake up at three am you see a figure standing there white and black. wtf don't you dare, its now five am - orait close to dawn its alright ahaha.

Okay - Now to actually see if the picture is actually too big or what. ;) good night.

@LohWenJun this is for you;

*dramatic intro*

as i am typing this , tears trickle down my cheek .

remember how i said that i would camp at your house when i come back from NS? apparently - that didn't happened , i haven't got my kraf-hutan training yet , but when you're reading this , i am probably at Sabah , getting tortured by some random physical activity right now - or i could be in the middle of the jungle already , but if i am not - i will be calling you during my lunch break .

whatever it is Joshua , Have a safe flight - a safe journey - like i said eh , If it was fated - we will be seeing each other soon.

i'm sorry i can't be there tomorrow

I don't like to make goodbyes or farewells long - i'll just make it short and simple .

trust me , your life has just begun - whoah words of wisdom here .

take care my tenth letter .